Friday, April 15, 2011

Peer Spotlight: Paula Deen

Hello, all!

Today I figured it was time to turn the spotlight onto the success story of someone who has lived experience with mental/emotional extremes.  This peer of ours suffered from depression and severe agoraphobia (fear of crowds and public places), but turned her pursuit of comfort into an attainable dream.  Whether you are a fan of her easy, flavorful recipes or a critic of her kitchen shortcuts and use of butter, there is something very valuable to learned from Paula Deen.

Deen’s mental/emotional challenges struck at a very formative period during her adulthood.  She was married at age eighteen and started having children at nineteen (remember, neurologists say the human brain isn’t fully developed until about age twenty-four).  When she was twenty-three, Deen’s parents both died tragically, leaving her young, responsible for small children, and except for a busy husband, alone.  Anyone would be sad under such circumstances.  For Deen, it triggered a twenty-year slump of depression and agoraphobia.

She hardly ever left the house.  She did occasionally make it into the supermarket, but never very far.  She often had to cook with the ingredients that are closest to the door.  For comfort, Deen took to her kitchen, practicing the Southern-style recipes her grandmother had taught her until each dish came out perfectly every time.  Besides herself, only Deen’s husband was aware of the extent of her mental/emotional challenges, and he was less than supportive.  In an act of desperation, she reached out to her Pastor for guidance, crying to him for the better part of an hour.  He then called her a “spoiled brat.”

When Deen’s first marriage dissolved, she was suddenly faced with the challenge of independent living.  Again, her kitchen provided her with comfort--and a solution to her problems.  She started with a very small catering business, making boxed lunches which her sons then sold to businessmen.  Hard work and perseverance led Deen to running her own restaurant.

That is Paula Deen’s recovery story.  The rest comes from a mixture of talent and luck.  A publisher ate at her restaurant and decided that she should have a cookbook.  Its first edition sold like wild on QVC, launching her to the status of celebrity chef with multiple cookbooks, two television shows and her own magazine.  Deen is married again, and still thriving in her kitchen.  She has even published a memoir, It Ain’t All About the Cookin’, in which she candidly discusses the good and bad parts of her life.

I love telling Deen’s story because she was able turn her comfort zone--cooking in her kitchen--into a productive way to interact with the world.  It takes a lot of strength to overcome challenges to mental and emotional health, and though Deen was caught in depression and agoraphobia for twenty years, she worked her way towards recovery.  This is exactly the kind of story that any of us Peers can have.

Thanks for reading, and as always, if you have something to post on the Central MA Recovery Learning Community blog, send it along to cmrlcblog@gmail.com.

Author: Deanna “Berry” Cassidy
Central Mass RLC
Sources

Moskin, Julia. “From Phobia to Fame: A Southern Cook’s Memoir.” nytimes.com. The New York Times. 28 February 2007.  Web. 14 April 2011.
“Paula’s Story.” Pauladeen.com. Web. 14 April 2011.
Pitcher, Bill. “33 Minutes with Paula Deen.” njmg.typepad.com. Second Helpings. 25 April 2007.  Web. 14 April 2011.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Your Recovery Story

Hello, all!

I’d first like to thank Alex for submitting a recovery story.  It’s great that we peers can connect even over the web to provide support and hope to each other.

If you would like to share your recovery story, please do!  We can put it up under any name you like, whether it’s your own, something made up, just initials or the ever-mysterious “anonymous.”  Try to include the answers to some or all of the following questions:

1.  What are some of your passions and strengths?

2.  What were some of the early indications that you were beginning to have difficulties?

3.  Briefly describe yourself and your condition when you were at your worst.

4.  What helped you move from where you were to where you are now?  What did you do?  What did others do?

5.  What have you had to overcome to get to where you are today?

6.  What have you learned about yourself and what we call recovery?  What are some of the strengths you have developed?

7.  What are some of the things that you do to keep yourself on the right path?

Write as much or as little as you’d like, but please keep it rated “G” or “PG.”  Email it to cmrlcblog@gmail.com, and help build this community by bringing us together.

Author: Deanna “Berry” Cassidy
Central Mass RLC

Recovery Story: Alex

My strongest feature is my imagination.  When I was a little kid I used it to make up my own versions of fairy tales, often involving horses in the place of people, or using my toys to reenact movies I saw.  Even my Barbies had well-established character arcs.  My favorite one was a special occasion Barbie doll with red hair instead of blonde.  Because she was different, I usually made her the “bad guy” in the dramas of my dolls’ lives, and I liked her the best because she was the most dynamic and interesting one.  I eventually grew out of having dolls act out my stories and into writing them down. 
The earliest indication that I was going crazy happened when I was really, really little.  I hated brushing my teeth before bed, not because I didn’t like dental hygiene, but because I was afraid to spend so much time on the side of the house with the bathroom all alone in the evenings.  I was convinced someone was watching me.  It really annoyed my father--he thought I was making it up for attention, or told me that it was all in my imagination.
When I’m at my worst, I’m convinced that there are beings all around me that no one else can see, watching me; that inanimate objects, especially the floor and large pieces of furniture, want to hurt/smother/devour me; and that I am not worthy of eating food. 
The best thing I can do for myself when I’m out of touch is ground myself in the here and now.  I engage my hands in some activity, usually knitting, cleaning or playing video games.  I also engage my senses of sight and hearing, usually by putting on a movie or a TV show.  I can’t pay any attention to people who exist inside my head if I’m connecting to people or characters who exist outside my head.   
To get where I am today, I had to fight against severe anxiety, suicidal depression and the fear that I will lose my ability to distinguish what is real and what is not real.  To be honest, I still have to fight that from time to time.  That’s what Recovery means to me... it isn’t a “cure,” it’s an ongoing process.  But I’ve figured out how to use my strong imagination for the better.  When I’m afraid of the things I know aren’t really there, I tell myself that they don’t exist on the physical level.  They’re there on the mental level, and though I may be limited in the “real world,” in my head I can be as strong and all-powerful as a superhero, or some kind of magician.  The invisible things watching me can’t compete.

Author: Alex W.